Wanna know my lil' secret?

2010-08-02T23:37:00.004+08:00

;)

you make me happy when you say that.

2010-07-30T22:44:00.001+08:00

I know you do :)
<3

2010-07-19T11:52:00.002+08:00

XOXO. <3

2010-07-13T02:20:00.005+08:00

Soft toys <3

Desserts are the best.

Sugar <3
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It totally looks retarded, but it's the thought that counts babyy :D
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Random moments. :)
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Mid Valley <3

I may not have verbally expressed my appreciation, especially those at times of turbulence, frustration and sadness, but thanks hun, for everything :)

<3

2010-06-19T01:52:00.004+08:00

Hie bitches.

Germany freakin LOST. Stupid referee. Serbians, tsk. Acting MAX.

Anyway, moi beloved Brazil is still on the go. GO BRAZIL! :) <3

Out in the cool breeze ;)
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I knew you were behind me all this while. Doesn't take a flame to see passion hidden beneath.
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ps: Where's debbie?

2010-06-11T18:20:00.002+08:00

Dejavu.

"When we get married and have kids, I'll tell them stories about how I met my one and only beautiful girlfriend whom I love so much and she's my only one. I'll brag about how it is true love and how we met. Hawt, sexy gorgeous mother they'd have *giggle".

"When we're 75 and old and wrinkly, I'll love you just as much, baby".

"I used to look inside the classroom, just to get a glance at you".

"I remember you borrowing a literature book from me, and I was struck with shyness."

Hmm, how come I've seen and heard those before ringing melodiously in my ears when I slept beside you?

2010-06-02T18:03:00.003+08:00

Let's hear you cheer :)

Take this.
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Love you guys a whole giant sotong.

We won btw :) XO

PS: <3

2010-05-22T19:39:00.002+08:00

Ink on stones, doesn't fade away unless you take water, and rub it off. If you want, take those stones and throw it away in the sea you call Rottnest Island.

If it takes a lifetime for you to see what was here for you, so let it be :) but I'd like to think, you never forgot. Deep inside, you know, I know, you didn't.

2010-03-22T06:13:00.011+08:00

Unforgettable.

Love it when you don't want to say bye :)
I didn't want to say it either :p

Those innocent days, "you shut up, no. you shut up first".

:))

Nintendo Wii :)
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Everything is alright, just for tonight,
0634.
<333

threescoopsthecharm.

2009-08-03T18:44:00.009+08:00

Life, Love, Lies.

Different Day - State of shock.

Can I trust you'll go away
If I'm to say, I'm okay
Just let me bleed on my own
And I will find my way home

Cause the sad sad side of it all
Is you don't remember
Being a breath away from death
The sad sad side of it all

And maybe, on a different day
I'd let the rain, wash this away
But it's just too late
The sad sad side of it all
Is you don't remember

This key cannot be re-cut
Cause my hearts been sealed shut
And if our paths cross again
I'll turn and walk away

Cause the sad sad side of it all
Is you don't remember
Being a breath away from death
The sad sad side of it all

And maybe, on a different day
I'd share the blame I'd share the pain
But it's just too late
And maybe, on a different day
I'd let the rain wash this away
But it's just too late
The sad sad side of it all
Is you don’t remember
Being a breath away from death
The sad sad side of it all

Is you're looking around lost
Just trying to find your way
Looking around lost
Just trying to find your way home

xx

Went to Forever 21 to kill time before the modelling briefing. I was so bored I went over the limit of taking clothes to try on. I took about 20 -.- but could only go in with 5 at a time. Oh wells, at least they didn't ask me to put it back. Btw, that girl who tended to me as a customer was super emo on that day. Don't know what's her problemo but she kinda made me emo as well -.- Funny how body language can work.

Things girls do inside changing rooms ;p Me likey this. But don't know if it's still there today, cause I didn't bring enough money to purchase it on that day :(
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Some previews of the pics I took during the hair do make up process. SOME only mmkay. Cause I didn't bring a camera (I know right) and therefore had to rely on other people for pictures :) Will post more when it's up.

Warning: It's a pretty scary get up. So brace yourself.
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What they wanted to do before the real day.
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Tranformed into this one, which I liked better :)

I <3 style="font-weight: bold;">:)
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My stylist's design/masterpiece.
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Random.
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Okay, that's about it, lol. Potong stim right? Only like 4 pictures. But that's all I got for you. Wait for more pictures to stream their way into my facebook, then I'll post it up. Until then, patience, little one.

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Thing's I'll never say - Avril Lavigne.

I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin' to keep my cool
I know it shows

I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
And I'm searching for the words inside my head

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah..

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind?
If it ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care?

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

If I could say what I wanna say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I wanna see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

(What is)What's wrong with my tongue?
These words keep slipping away
(I stutter)I stutter (I stumble)I stumble like I've got nothing to say

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

[Verbal Acoustics]

I guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

These things I'll never Say..

Guess who's the cheeky, sleeping beside me?

xx, <3

2009-07-29T00:32:00.018+08:00

Wounded soldiers needing healing.

"I finally know just what it means to let someone in. To see the side of me that no one does or ever will."

xx

One month of nocturnal activity does take a toll on your body. But alas, I am used to it as it happens seasonally.

I've just been too lazy to blog, albeit promising that I will 'update soon'. As you can see, that 'soon' period is today. Having to wait 2 months for an exam results really is a bummer. It doesn't kill time any faster, nor does it do any good if we end up contemplating over all the fails, passes or HD. But whatever, what is done is past.

Anyway, this is a self-proclaimed update, so obviously I have to produce something worthy of looking at lah, right?

I have...

been travelling.

been dancing my ass off.

been meeting new people.

been manja-ing.

been MJ-ing. (Micheal Jackson, if you really don't know)

been celebrating.

been gala dinner-ing.

been movie-ing.

been loving.

been a lot of things lah okay -.-

Let them pictures speak their thousand words.

Perak Mission Trip

Lol, love this. We are just too damn awesome, right?!
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Well, being awesome also meant getting stranded at a roadside in Sitiawan, Perak because our 'transport' was at an undisclosed workshop, without our acknowledgement. Hence the birth of SLK gang. Special Little Kelisa. We had to fit 7 of us into a Kelisa.
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This is us being awesome in P.E positions because the room was meant for babies only. Therefore the lack of space for giants like us to sit in :D
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Kedah Mission Trip

Jeng jeng jeng :) Let me tell you a story of us being stranded (I know right? Why are we always stranded somewhere -.-) in Puduraya bus station.

Basically, we got tickets to go to Sungai Petani, Kedah. Whence we reached this run down place (Puduraya), we were told to wait, etc and the bus co-ordinator will escort us to the platform.

Okay, here's the part where you are supposed to predict the outcome.

And yes, you guessed it right.

The bus left 20 minutes after the guy told us wait diligently. We, the stranded-ians (yes yes, my short form, deal with it) were told to wait for a 3 o clock (AM, mind you) bus. But seriously, we we all thinking that this dude was trying to con us. Gawd, did he think that we were thatttt thick.

Turns out, we were right about being conned. There was never a 3AM bus but his pride kept him from telling us the truth and thus his reason that the 3AM bus was delayed was because there was a jam. Come on. Seriously? A traffic JAM, at 3AM? Slap me twice and tell me I'm not hearing that bullshit. We spent 3 hours talking, and another 2 after we found out we got conned. Finally, our lawyer-to-be, Emloyd, confronted a policeman and told our story.

Okay lah, this is where it gets complicated. You get the gist.

Anyway, we waited at Puduraya for almost 7 hours, STANDING. Why didn't we sit? Oh wells, there were people sleeping on all the benches. And also, we didn't want to sit on a cockroach infested floor. Sigh.

Thus, ends this tragic tale.

But in the very end, we got there safe though exhausted. Thanks to Eric's dad who took care of us so nicely. Thank you UNCLE!

We got so tired, that the slightest feeling of comfort and relaxation was enough to put us all in total bliss *cue heavens light*
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And this, people, was how excited we were, before the tragic tale.
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Credits to the cool photographer :)
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Picture with the awesome stomp-ers and of course, Shawn :)
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Say "I love durian"
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PUSH @ Sunway Uni College

Then there was the P.U.S.H event. Quite last minute, but fun nonetheless :)

Is this the one with our cool pose? Lol, I really don't know :p
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Can you spot me. Seriously.
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Chc's 8th Anniversary Dinner :)

Cannot see the dress properly, but you get the picture lah. Thanks Jeff for picking this *$* dress for me :p
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With dear Jda :) Love you babe.
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Getting it on with the stage :) Thanks Alvin.
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What you're bound to get after the gala :)

The head is immobile. But still able to smile, haha.
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That's all for now. I'm really too lazy and pissed off now, to blog any further.

xoxo.

2009-06-13T02:45:00.002+08:00

Taking chances.

What's up peep-holes :D

It's the 13th. Marks eventful memories and *censored* confessions. Stuff you don't wanna know :p

*Prances with pom poms around*

1,2,3 action!

2009-05-14T23:08:00.009+08:00

Knight in black armor.

*hyperventilates*

Yo muh hommies (that didn't come out right, did it..) Let's try it again. What's up people (peep-hole. Sorry, it kind of sounded like that.)

Do you guys watch Knight Rider? For those who watched the original version when you were younger, that's one of them. There is also another one (remake or not, I don't know lah okay); Knight Rider 2008.

So, you'd be assuming that I'm in it for some hot guy or girl, but whatever. I'm talking about KITT, the awesomely beawesome car. As some of you love luxury cars like Ferrari, Maserati, Porche, Audi, etc, I am now loving the Ford Mustang Shelby GT500KR!
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Sarah Graiman (Lead actress)
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Micheal Knight (Lead male)
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This is the how the mustang looks in real life :D
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This is KITT in Knight Rider.
*Big-eyed and drooling*
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Heart rate: 200/60 GOD YOU HANDSOME THING!
*attempts to start a KITT fanclub*
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Can I ride you please :)
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So, who needs a luxury car when you can have KITT?
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In this form:

Weapon armor! No bullets, lightning, bombs, etc can destroy you! He has access to the satellite, a hacking programe, firepower and a weaponary system, awesome rims, auto-pilot system, etc! Plus, KITT talks. He talks like a very intelligent human being :D

You're awesome KITT :D

*End of fantasy*

Kay, on a more realistic note, I have an English Paper tomorrow. To make things worse, I have to walk from KLCC to BC :( with period cramps. God please help me. Got a lot of cars to evade and wide roads to cross!

Okay, I'm off to write essays -.-

Goodnight ;)

2009-05-10T01:12:00.019+08:00

Whenever you call.

Happy Mother's Day,
to all the awesome mummies in the world, and if yours isn't awesome, well... I'd wish you anyway. All mom's deserve a break mmkay :)

So, prior to the mummy's celebration, my brother, my cousins and I decided to throw some party at my grandmama's house; a surprise party at that. Therefore, my bro and I went to Pyramid on Thursday, to get some presents and liquor lol.

We bought wine, a T-shirt, and some delicious swiss chocolate. Now, it's only 3 items right? Guess how long we took to fulfill the shopping list? - that's right, more than 3 hours. One hour for each item? Crazy. Bakabakashi. Gila. Michyuhsuh. Yes, it's 'crazy' in 4 languages.

So, off we went, innocently to window shop; eventually getting lost, and having to turn to the directory like more than 5 times. So, yeah, we got lost. Anyway, we managed to buy the Yellow Tail Australian wine; it tasted alright :)

At the wine cellar. Trying to camwhore as fast as I could, cause I think that they didn't allow picture taking? :P
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One of which we considered.
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Trying to get aunty clothes for my mom, Lol. As a joke of course.
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She likes purple, so what to do.
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Got tired of walking; decided to take a donut break at J&co.s
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Evidence.
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Then my brother went to look at his guy clothing, etc and I got bored, cause it was practically just sports attire. Tried to make a goldfish face, but er, came out wrong. Thus, this retarded photo.
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Camera was having some kind of PMS day -.-
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Major PMS.
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Secretly taken, lol.
Gawd, if he knew...
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Spotted this guy playing the piano who looks like my ex-electone teacher. Got some photographer there also, snapping away!
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This is a drink you have to taste if you want to allow yourself to be westernized :D
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Sick and tired. Seriously, I look like I'm gonna pass out any moment.
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but then...
the parents wanted to have bak kut teh. Who in the world could refuse bak kut teh? So, I kept myself wide awake, by drinking hot tea. But in the end, I kong-ed in the car.
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Black Day (it's politics, go read.)
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Came back dead lor.
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Anyway, the celebration was a success. Albeit all the laughter and made-obvious suspicions, I think we'll never be successful in terms of cooking up a flawless crime :p It is near impossible! Haha. But it was great, and funny. Food was well, asian. And, best of all, I would like to nominate my cousin for 'The cheapster' Award this Mother's Day 2009. He wrapped a box of tissue nicely in wrapping paper, and tried to pass it off as a present to the mom who gets his unfortunate number. Lol :D

Mmkay, I'm tired. Exam in 3 days, and I'm biting the ends of my nails.
God help us all.

Oyasuminasai minna :)

2009-05-08T04:39:00.015+08:00

Inner child.

Yo people :)

Exams are around the corner, and I'm just dreading it. One paper is freaking 8am in the morning :/ Who in the world wakes up THAT early for an exam paper. I hope my brain works despite the cold morning weather. *Prays*

And I'm sick people :( Mad fever, mad flu (not swine flu, I hope), etc. Anyway, I have nothing to blog yet as of now. I've turned into a hermit crab cum nerd. Stay at home is what I do best -.-

Anyway, since a certain someone *ahem* says I don't update, and is resorting to backslide, I shall do my part to not become the source of his backsliding lol.

Today's topic would be, *jeng jeng jeng*- "Your favorite Disney character."

I have a few lah okay, but these are the few that I superdupertrooper love.

Mushu
Who doesn't love Mushu? Eddie Murphy was even the voice actor! Gawd, he's just hillarious.

Some of my favorite quotes:
"My powers are beyond your mortal imagination!"
"Loser.....? How bout if I pop one of your antenna's off!"
"My eyes can see straight through your armor."
"My little baby off to destroy people"
"I....ring the gong...."
"CHICKEN BOY!?! Say that to my face, ya limp noodle!!!"
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How can someone not love this guy's humor? It's adorable :D
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Mulan
Okay, I have a confession to make. I've probably watched this movie like 20 times? And somehow I never get bored of it, (though I can sort of memorize the dialogues already). Man, I need more movies like this. Inspirational, oriental, funny, just plain awesome-lah.
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Look at my reflection; who's that girl?
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Genie from "Aladdin"
I have not watched Aladdin since I was little, but I vaguely remember the movie :) In fact, I have the whole series, I think. I just know that he's pretty lame, and blue :D Love his hair sticking outta his head though, hehe.
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Genie sunbathing!
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Stitch from "Lilo & Stitch"
Cute!
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Sometimes Stitch reminds me of me. His mischief, his blabbering in godknows what gibberish, and his sudden act of affection/kindness. He reminds me of how random I can be :) So, Stitch, you and I could sooo be BFFs, lol.
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I found this, and thought it was very warm.
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Rhino from "Bolt"
Need I say more? :D
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He's super funny, lame, obsessive; just plain hillarious. Not to mention fat and fluffy! I'm your #1 fan!! :DD Arghh, I just wannapinchyourcheeks!
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& they lived happily ever after.
The end.

I know it's a super lame post okay, but I love it! :) Disney characters make my days. Those of you who knows very little of me, would now know that I'm a kid at heart.

*random*
I saw some ad in pyramid which wrote:
"Belly fat, belly flat."

Try saying that repeatedly,
Belly fat, belly flat, belly fat, belly flat, belly fat, belly flat, belly fat, belly flat, belly fat, belly flat, belly fat, belly flat, belly fat, belly flat, belly fat, belly flat, belly fat, belly fat, belly fat, belly fat, belly fat, belifad, belifad, belifad, belifad, blefe, blefe, blefe, blefe... er, okay.

Goodnight humanoids :)

2009-04-29T20:11:00.004+08:00

Reflect.

I know it has been a terrible sin for me to always delay my updates (if there were any -.-). It's just that I've lost the knack of it. There isn't anymore excitement when blogging comes to mind and I'm guessing it started off when my camera broke down. I couldn't save the poor soul.

Anyway, I just realized that in year 2009 alone, I've only blogged.. 6 miserable times? Gawd, I'm so sorry to those of you who actually take the trouble to read my blog. As a sign on compensation, I shall try to be more of a blogger and less of a procrastinator. Give me time, preferably after May 18!

But before that I'd like to warn you that this is not a post full of pictures okayy :P

What's new some would say?

There isn't much that is new. Church has been something I'm getting used to go. It isn't a drag for me anymore I guess. Since they've changed the sessions a little, I find it easier to get to church. I actually look forward to it nowadays :)

Exams are around the corner, 14 days to be exact *gasp. So, if you see a girl wearing shorts and carrying a large bag, fretting with textbooks while walking on the road (or anywhere for that matter), that's probably me. I can never get used to exams. For those of you who have had major schooling; you know when the teacher actually punishes you for not doing your homework, or putting you in a lower class if you failed your tests, you'd probably feel a lot more at ease. Though, I don't know why I'd feel any different if I actually feel prepared -.- I need more mental energy.

Timo came back. He thought he could execute the flawless crime- surprising his own CG members, when actually he came a wee bit too late. He was spotted walking to our CG session. Haha, backfired. Oh well, it was still a pleasant surprise :)

Oh, I have a new pair of heels! Complimentary from dicsyen. *Pictures in a few days* He hated my gladiators so much that he actually bought a new pair of shoes for me. How nice. I get to wear it to Dash's awesome wedding!

As of now, I think Sunday would be the day I look most forward to. That's the day I get to relax and have bonding moments with awesome people :D

Just yesterday, I sat in for a preaching test. My cell members were giving a sermon. I don't think I regretted going because it brought my soul back on levelled ground. I felt peaceful for some reason. They did awesomely well ofcourseIhadnodoubt!

And, as for my critical down periods, I don't think it's necessary to mention it here. After all, the longest it lasts would probably be one day. I'm so blessed to have people caring for me. They'd bring me back to reality within a day, and I thank you all for that. Especially my cousin, who does not read this blog. I know that there are times I'm overly dramatic, but you never put me down, instead you try and help me up :)

April has been an awesome month!

KLpac is organizing an audition for those who are interested in performing arts. Do check it out before the end of April as auditions are held on 5th of May.

Check out this link if you are interested:
http://www.rwsentosa.com/auditions.html

Dinnertime. Toodelahs.

"I smell like you."- deercaughtinyourheadlights

2009-04-13T18:12:00.002+08:00

Distance is just a word, nothing more.

When the stage is bare tonight,
There's no one else,
Just you and me.

When the curtains closed behind,
There's no pretense,
I'm on my knees.

Might edit this, might not.
xx

2009-03-19T22:41:00.032+08:00

Source of procrastination.

Le sigh.

Why am I like this? (Mmhmm, I'm sure you're wondering what I'm babbling about).

Truth is, I am a hopeless romantic. Every time I discover a series that portrays the particular theme, I would sneak-a-peak, and if I happen to fall in love with it. . . there starts the procrastination.

On the other hand, I also think that it helps me relieve stress, sadness, or what not. Thus, a happier Sarah, and a livelier person to hang out with. Everyone say aye! :D *convinces self with conviction!*

So my current addiction would be, "Kkhotboda Namja aka Boys Before Flowers". Obviously, there are eye candies to boot, no wonder there are so many fangirls going crazy about this series. A luxurious setting does attract one to watch with more ease; well, that's me. I don't know about everyone else, but it seems more entertaining. Anyway-

A cast of four beautiful boys.
Beautiful > handsome.
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Sporty, I think. (Isn't it winter in Korea now?)
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Okay. The TRUE meaning of this picture was because I liked his outfit on that day, but I couldn't find one that fully exhibits his lovely coat and collar shirt. I wished my boyfriend would wear those clothes. *Swoons
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The oh-so-infamous stiff wedding photo. Lol.
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At least they're smiling right :)
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A gentleman who cleans and exudes kindness at the same time.
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Funny moments in the drama.
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The boy cooks! :D
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His sinful infatuation. God, they so belong together :(
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Oh btw, he is also an artiste. Group name: SS501.
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Hot outfit spotted! :D Love it!
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Photoshoot.
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Pretty boy photoshoot :)
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Charmed smile.
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:D
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Le sigh, seriously. This drama has some outfit galore going on. I love their outfits! Note to boyfriend: You should wear stuff like these okay :) I will love you even more. HAHA. I'm kidding, hun. (but wear it okay) *glee
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Second current craze;

DARKER THAN BLACK/
KURO NO KEIYAKUSHA.

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Synopsis (quoted from wikipedia)-

Ten years ago, an inscrutable and abnormal territory known as Hell's Gate appeared in Tokyo, altering the sky and wreaking havoc on the landscape. The heavenly bodies disappeared, replaced by false stars. During this time, people who possess various special abilities emerged. Kept secret from the masses, these individuals, known as Contractors, are able to murder in cold blood. Various nations and organizations around the world use Contractors as spies and assassins, often resulting in violent battles for information. Each fake star has a corresponding Contractor, and they vibrate when their Contractor's power is being used. As such, Contractors are usually identified by their star's Messier catalogue number. However, their abilities are gained at the cost of their humanity. They are implied to lack human emotions which includes no aversions to murder, and they are regarded as extremely rational and logical in their decision making. Contractors are thus named because of their need to always complete a remuneration or payment each time their power is used (ex. eating flowers, breaking fingers, drinking blood). It is not entirely clear what happens to one if he or she fails to complete the remuneration. Contractors are described as being psychologically compelled to complete their remunerative task.

Lead character: Hei. And he's awesome.
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Sometimes he goes with the soft look,
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Sometimes he goes with an adorable look,
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Apparently, he's also a sensitive being :D
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Sigh, I love bad boys who are sensitive as well. *swoon mode
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Badass face.
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Undisguising himself.
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Keiyakusha no me.
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Tears under the rain.
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Merciless only as a human would be.
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2 on 2.
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Despite possessing supernatural powers, he uses a gun too. Lol.
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Just watch the series if you'd like to know more. I liked it because it wasn't some typical anime with a typical storyline. It has some action, romance, drama, psycology thing going on; the catch is to catch it yourself. Though, I wished he fought better, and in a much cooler manner.

So, there goes my days of procrastination. Exam days are drawing closer, is this my means of displaying anxiety? I hope not. Or I'll be burried under a bottomless pit, filled with remorse.

Who in the world invented this process called the 'examination'?!
*glare*

P.s: Friend's Night @ City Harvest Church. Friday (20th March), 7pm-10pm! Be there, or you might miss out on something big :D!

2009-03-07T13:15:00.005+08:00

Stressing out till the finish line.

Exams are coming. It's coming so soon that I'm numb to the importance of it all. I never really wanted this. I was somewhat psychologically pushed into the fact that I have to get it done once and for all, or I'll be deemed indifferent and stupid.

Insomnia will kick in soon enough. Stress will lead to illness that I never wished I had. I hate all of this. I talk to them and it ends up in a pile of argument.

This isn't easy for me, MOM. I know you are doing all you can to make sure I get the best grades that anyone could ever get- distinction. I thank you for that. It's not that I'm not smart enough; but you're constantly breathing down my neck. I have no space, and I feel pressured. I am not you; I am not strong headed like you. Please, give me a break. I have many other problems to deal with, and you are not helping at all. Even if I fell sick, you never showed compassion, or love. All you do is blame me for being sick; saying that I brought it upon myself.

I'm sick of being told that I'm overly sensitive. I need someone who could accommodate that emotion into a positive vision. No one knows how difficult this is for me, no one knows that I'm trying my best, no one acknowledges the fact that I need unconditional support- no one.

Stop preaching to me on how to be a person; start being one yourself. The only difference that makes me a better person is that I try to make amends bit by bit. And I know how invisible I am to you. That is why I cannot stand to be myself in this family. I am not the filial daughter you wished I'd be.

My efforts are futile, and I end up lonely, just like the piercing cold wind.

Maybe that's why I have always relied on you.

2009-02-26T23:52:00.002+08:00

Blueberry.

Holla bella, to the few that comes across my humble abode. I've been catching up on dramas, gossips, news and of course, who could forget - studies. It hasn't been too hectic for me, but the perpetual rainy days makes mine a little more somber.

And! It's getting on my nerves that wherever I go, I have to go through the rain first :( All my efforts taking a bath disappears within the second. Sighh. Then I'll have to wash up again. Then again, it's mother nature; who could defy it. Umbrella you say? Even the umbrella does no justice to 'freshly blow dried fragrant locks'. And I'm one to use a hoodie instead of an umbrella. Silly me.

Anywayy, I would first warn you that there will be no pictures in this particular post (but I think you know that already). Maybe the next. I'll be going to Kinokuniya tomorrow to do some 'light' reading and see if I find any interesting materials.

3 months and counting. Life would be a torture to live those 3 months stressing out paperwork, after paperwork. I need some fun people! *winkety-wink at youknowwhoyouare ;)

Oooh, Watchman is coming out! Or is it out already? I don't keep up with movies nowadays. I think I'd watch watchman do his thang (geddit? watch watchman. . . guess not. Man, I'm killing myself with the extreme lameness.) Might be interesting. So, who's planning? *points finger.

Lol. Okayy.

To end it on a totally awkward note, I'm a self declaring vampire because I've turned into a nocturnal being. I sleep when you're awake. So, I'm not really sure if I'll make it to KLCC tomorrow, in one piece. Hence, making sure I bring a loaded playlist with me.

Oyasuminasai, those who are as nocturnal as I am ;)

2009-02-06T18:12:00.019+08:00

Akai.

Happy Chinese New Year people :D

The first few days of CNY was hot and I was wearing a purple dress with lining on the inside, wtf. But Thank the Lord, for the creators of air conditioning.

Anyway, every CNY is probably just like the last CNY. We come, We collect, We eat, and We switch venues. Lol. Just kidding lah. If my grandma reads this, I'll be sooo dead :p

There was a year, my brother and I were competing who loves us more since our birthdays are 30Dec and 4Feb accordingly. So I would get angpaos on my birthday, and he would also get the same. But inside the red packets were different sums. So far, I think we broke even.

For us, every year we go to my mama's place to eat a variety of delectable traditional food(s). Then we'd go to my counsin's house to eat nasi lemak. EVERY freakin YEAR we eat that Nasi Lemak. Somehow we just don't get bored of eating the same thing every CNY. Lol.

Though, this year it was more gambling and less taking pictures. Tsk tsk, the economy crisis has driven all those pure ones, to gamble. Pure uns = kids under the age of 15. Wtf man. And guess who's the 'chong-er' most of the time, or rather, The Two who starts it all? - Mr. Darren and Gerald Young; the eldest of the cousin line.

Oh well, 'All's well ends well'. Haha, joke between me and the couzs' :D

Fav cousin no.1 :p
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Big Bully no.1 :D .
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Can you spot what's wrong with the pic?
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:)
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Okay, - presenting Baby Grant who's jovial every time he's around my brother. Man, he's so effing cute!
Scenerio #1-
Brother runs around in a small circle; Baby Grant finds that amusing and starts doing the same until he gets dizzy and sits down to laugh. Wtf.
Scenerio #2-
Brother sitting down eating some food; Baby Grant just entered grandma's house with family. The first thing he notices is my brother eating and tugs his shirt to play. Yeah, BabyGrant says "Ditch the foodstuff; I'm here on business" Wtf. Damn cute iwannapinchyourcheeks!

Day 2 onwards:

Normally after the first 2 days of visiting, we'd eat dinner with my mom's side. Visiting the mom's side means I'd be the eldest amongst my cousins; which means I'd get bullied if one goes array. :(

Nolah, that doesn't happen :P
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They tried playing tic tac toe with my legs + cousin's legs combined.
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Lil Shyavonne likes to drag me camwhoring.
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She's growing up so fast.
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Adults having their adult sessions. I had to spy on them! Thus, this unsightly angle.
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All in all, CNY was alright. The only thing that we had last year but not this year was - a Lion Dance performance.

xx

Kin the Emo.
"Woot, it's even in BOLD."

Till the last moment, you didn't allow me to take a pic of you. Meanie :( But I life in Aussie awaits Mr. NoSolace. We will definitely miss you and hope you'd come back with souvenirs okayy? Lol. Anyway, cut down the smokin, and womanizing HAHA! Kidding, kidding. DKMP (dont kill me pls) :D

All the best :) Come back rich then you can take me shopping ok?
Okay okay, I'll stop :p

xx

Destruction in the form of cotton.

Note: Both of the bears look the same.
- bought in the same shop
- same color
- same species

So how can you tell them apart? Let Master Shyavonne tell you how.

Notice the color fading.
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Check the head for stiches.
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And body for abuse.

Haha, my cousin used to have this worn out one, until one day she said it was ugly and 'not nice to hug anymore', therefore she bought a new one. An IDENTICAL one. HUH?

She must really love green bears.

:D

xx

A place where muffins equal love.

xo's with a mango on top :D

Mata ato de, anata. Literally :)

2009-01-14T15:33:00.055+08:00

Decent post, finally.

I've been either too lazy or busy to update. Whichever it is, stop complaining now that you've got a post! :p

To jump start the first post of 09', Happy New Year ya'll :D

Allow me to complete the extremely delayed post. I have like, 2639236874 pictures that could have been posted, but 1) blogger, is sometimes a biatch; 2) too much obscenity, lol. I also have like, 30 minutes to complete this.

Enjoy.

Asia Conference 08

As you people know, I went to Asia Conference 08 in November. Everyone was supposed to leave on the 18th, I think, but our Asia Conference 'hype' started on the 17th. We were staying late nights to practice. Late nights = till 5am.

Those crazy days.

Panicking over the quality of our routine;

Stress I tell you, STRESS!
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Digress a bit:

C3 was in town.
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Bringing joy and smiles to those who've seen despair.
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Kayy :) Back to Asia Conference.

It started with THIS.
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The first day was pretty much a dowhateveryouwant day. So we decided to go shopping.
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Open air audition for Nike.
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& the boys contracted the bored bug. They started to look at McD as an experiment. I have a video, maybe I'll post it in another post.

Mission: They were trying to see if anyone looked at what they were looking at, out of curiosity. It works. Lol.
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Xmas in S'pore never bores. Well, the decoration that is.
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"With God all things are possible."
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We stayed at a place called Eton Hall.

Every morning, approximately at 730am, there will be at least 5 buses waiting here. And the platform would be congested with people.
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Royal Rd. True that.
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The magnificent hall that fitted at least 20,000 people.
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Camwhoring while waiting in line.
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Le sigh. It's so damn huge.
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Cindykins and I. Cam whoring after dance practice.
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The super long lunch line.
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Lovelies.
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Awesome moments.
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Can't get enough of the hugeness.
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During Pastor's ordination :)
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:D
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Every day was a tiring day.

But it was great. Never in my life, I had to sleep at 430am and wake up at 630am for ANY camps or conferences. Madness much. Asia Conference was somewhat a change in my mundane life as it would be for most people, I think.

xx

Dancing gig @ Nilai.

I lost my dancing gig virginity in Nilai.

It was an opportunity opened up by dear Jorida. Honestly, when I decided to grab this opportunity, I was doubting myself. First of all, I didn't have the versatility. I was afraid I couldn't catch up. To add more fear to the existing one, Jo said that the practices are normally 3 days prior to the event. Obviously, I wasn't sure of myself. But I went on with it anyway.

I learned lots about myself during this period.
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Ushering duty in cheongsam :)
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Loved the bling bling costume :D
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Lol. xoxo.
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Who's ass is this?
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Lol, who's the horny person snapping butts?
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It was definitely the most tiring dance performance up to date.
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Yellow is smexy.
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Xx`

Thanks for the opportunity Jo :)

xx

Dittobuns.

Meet Ditto.

He's dumb.
He's cute.
He's naughty.
He bites.
He sits in a stylish manner.
He pees everywhere.
He poops everywhere.
He doesn't sleep till 8am.
He likes girls.
He likes toes.
He only drinks mineral water. Wtf.
He was a stray;

But now, he's mine.

Mummy and daddy loves you :)

xx

Christmas @ Changs.

Usually people would celebrate Xmas on the 24th and 25th. But we, CHC were putting on a show to add on the smiles of those who came. It was simple and entertaining. Loved the end results. Thank God our late night practices were fruitful :D

Sigh, why do I know people like this. Lol

Tao fu fa, and Char kuey teow :D
Hillarious duo.
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Elfies.
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Santa and his chics :P
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Santarina <33>

Nerd power. Haha.
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Sammy :)
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What goes on backstage?
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THIS. and many more.
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xo's to you :)
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Them, one of a kind.
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Bathroom obscenity.
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More obscenity!
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Too much cam whoring = emoness. NOT.
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Mr. Chang got pimped!
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Hanging out in the toilet gets hot after a while.
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Encore.
Can you spot Pastor Kev?
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Melodious :P
Don't be deceived by her sweet look and innocent name. Lol
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Candlelight ceremony :)

I loved Christmas, and the day after :D
2008 wasn't so bad after all.

xx

Jakun @ AC

Who are these people trying to steal teddy bears from a machine?

Tsk tsk ;p

Finally,
I get to sleep. No wait, study :(

"Exhausted but not defeated."

Special moments, remembered as a secret.
Our dirty little secret.

2008 was eventful. What would 2009 offer?

2008-11-18T02:48:00.005+08:00

Lovely memories without faces.

In a few hours time I'll be off to Singapore :)

I feel excited, but flooded with anxiety as well. Hopefully all goes well for everyone who's going. Oh, not to mention the agonizing bus ride that I'll be experiencing! Thumbs down for motion sickness :(
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Oh well, on another note, C3 came to City Harvest today :D

They were awesome and I had a front row view of the whole performance. Vibrations that leaves your body shaken even hours after the concert; it was just enlightening. Awesome performance, and they're kind of cute ;p
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Before I leave, 300km away from home, I feel the need to dig up the time capsule.

I miss:

This; the tranquil panorama.
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The moment that nearly went into sexy mode.
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Many kisses exchanged ;)
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The once in a lifetime delicacy :)
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I miss you, bear.

Waiting within the hour seems so long, and agonizing; but the more I think about it, the more emotions engulf my soul.

God, please make me feel good and not kill myself.

To end it, I pray for a safe journey, fun moments with brothers and sisters, an awesome performance, to shake Pastor Kong's hand again, to inspire the crowd and last but not least, to have a good time. I also pray for my sanity, and competence, in surviving emotional traumas. Father Lord, please hear me out :)

In Jesus name,
Amen.

2008-11-07T03:08:00.007+08:00

Distinguished fears.

Who would have known,
The sound of shattered glasses,
Who would have known,
The silent tears,
Who would have known,
Your subtlety,
Who would have known-
Only me.
Shadows are gray,
But yours is black,
Night is dark,
But yours only dimmed,
My heart darkened,
But yours deepened,
My words sharpened,
But yours silenced;Where art thou,
You, whom I knew;
You, whom I sought;
You who taught me colors,
Colored me blind.

Crusader, crusader,
Knight shinning in silver,
Knight, oh! knight,
Coated in armor,
The war we fought,
No longer significant,Sentiments laid;
Courage left aside;
Judgements, you decide;
Maiden, oh, maiden,
Why do you abide?

Words describe not this anguish,
Comfort her you cannot,
Your maiden heart aches,
She cringes at the thought of reasons,
Eradicating the weeds you planted,
Contemplating justice,
Contemplating choice,
Contemplating love.
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In the end, I only smiled because of you.

... this formidable love.

2008-11-06T03:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWNIE BOY :D

BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BOY already lah, (17 right ;p)

Anyway, just a BIG shout-out to you;

Here's a poem dedicated to you;

Use your talent,
Demand its challenge,
Grasp it proudly,
But with an open heart.

The day will come,
Patience, little one,
He knows its your call,
Just make it through; give it your all.

:)

Have a great one. Gonna see you in church until I'm sick of you! :P

P.S: Nola, I'm not so bad kay :]

Fast forward:-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA P'NG JIN LI :D

I know your birthday is on the 7th, but since I didn't get to call you at 12am, I succumbed to this. Wishing you on the net, a day before! (bangga)

I haven't seen you in a while, but I hope you still remember the good times we had as a kid. You were my soulmate, my shoulder, my sister, my best friend. Remember that one time I actually came to your house at 6 blardy am in the morning just to watch a movie. Remember our first meeting was through skating? Sigh, I miss those fun childish times. It's sad that our pathways are now separated. Nonetheless! I only stay like a few houses away from yours lah.

Have a great one, I know you will. Don't party too hard :)

Love ya babe, xo.

2008-10-29T17:49:00.005+08:00

Wrestle thy affections.

I've officially lost my mojo to blog! Why am I so lazy :(

But, there is still hope! I am still writing on empty pages to keep the vocabulary intact and also to relieve stress.

So much has happened ever since I joined CHC, and I wonder whether it was ever a coincidence that I found my place. But He is always planning something great for each of us, and I will least try to make an effort to believe :)

Anyway, Dance My Love premiered a few weeks ago and it has been a blast despite sudden rushes of adrenalin numbing my body. During the first night, I felt scared, because I haven't been on stage for quite some time and was getting stage fright. I never felt so scattered in my life! I was here, there and everywhere; hair, make-up, wardrobe, accessories- you name it!

Quite an experienced felt, I'd say. I think I'd love to do another production as long as I'm free. So much with words, let's look at some of the pictures taken on stage :D

Presenting,

The infamous poster!
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Our elegant ballet team :)
*There you can see David Oh, acting as the ballet instructor and also a dad to one of the main cast.
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Spot the not: ZOUK >> ZUOK.
Our very own beatboxer doing his thang again :p
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Smooth Gees having a moment!
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Mimers!
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They were awesome lol ;p
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'Tyler' looks lost. Jorida was on set too :)
[So You Think You Can Dance finalist]
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Two main characters.
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Scene of the day: Nerd dancers!
They never fail to crack me up.
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Awesome :D
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Monsieur Justin and me.
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Lol, I didn't know Justin covered so much of his face!
Wondered how he manage to guide me :p
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Our very own hip hoppers! Hawt :D
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Smooth Gees in action :)
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Final retro dance scene :)

It was great; we all had fun.

xx

Tagged by Cayman & Huifen:

1) What is the relationship between you both?
Friends [Cayman]; Friend, cell member [Huifen]

2) 5 impressions of him/her:
Huifen:
- Caring
- Hillarious
- Hardworking
- Helpful
- Smiles all the time
Cayman:
- Friendly
- Helpful
- Sociable
- Intelligent
- Colorful

3) Most memorable things she/he has done for you:
Keep sandwiches for me after dance practice [Huifen]
Don't really talk much with Cayman, so I'm not sure.

4) The most memorable she/he has said to you:
"Get well soon, yeah?" [Huifen]
Like I said, I didn't get to talk much to Cayman, soo.. :(

5) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
feel awkward [both]

6) If he/she becomes your lover, they will have to improve on:
Lol, not sure what to say here ;p

7) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is:
I 'stole' your guitar [Huifen]
Coz, the Devil got jealous :P [Cayman]

8) The most desirable thing to do to him/her:
Haha, is this question written correctly?

9) The overall impression on him/her:
Both:
Friendly :)

10) How do you think the people around you feel around you?
Awkward sometimes!

11) Your character is:
Define all here meh -.-"

12) What do you hate about yourself?
The inability to trust people.

13) The most ideal person you want to be is:
I'm ideal enough right? :p Nola, hmm, I think idealism doesn't last long.

14) For the people who cares about you and like you, say something to them:
Thank you to whoever you may be :) I appreciate all the love and care that you have given to me! Thank you, thank you, thank YOU! [Man, I sound like a beauty pageant contestant, lol]

Ten people to tag:
1) Darren
2) Ethan ( I know he won't do it ;p)
3) Jian Eu
4) Samuel Chew
5) Delvin
6) Jeffrey
7) Shawn
8) Amy
9) Carmen
10) You! :D

Who is no. 2 having a relationship with:
HAHAHAHA.

Is no.3 a male or female?
What do you think?

If no.7 and 10 got together, would it be a good thing?
Hmm, it depends on who 'You' are.

How about no.5 and 8?
Weird. Totally, weird. LOL

What is no.1 studying?
Ain't studying no more. Working :)

Is no.4 single?
The last time I asked, yes ;p

Wahliao, damn tired to do a meme lor. T_T
I'm off to leisure land now :D

Toodelahs!

2008-10-14T23:23:00.002+08:00

If it means to keep you ;

Sudden wars of vulgarities, you know we both don't really mean it. At some point, this has got to stop. This cannot continue forever. I held my breath for as long as I could, and I am still holding; I'm sure you are too.

Pray and have mercy upon the things you are doing to me. Whether you say it blatantly to the open or not, there are times I can feel the vague feeling of betrayal taking its place. Spare me your glares and disgust when I behave childishly. It only happens when I am with you. It shows that there are things in me waiting to burst, but kept compressed in my hollow chest. There are just so many things to say to you, but somehow backfires when the time is necessary.

Although, I'm occupied with the things I am doing now, I never fail to feel a pang of guilt in my heart, not accompanying you at night. I don't say it, I don't show it, doesn't mean I don't feel it. But there are days I question, my presence towards you; it just makes me vulnerable to know that I am sacrificing so many things, just so you'd keep noticing me.

I try to depend on myself, but yet I feel the void residing in me. I need you because I love you. And that's how it has always been. You just don't know how important you are, until maybe... one day.

These past few days, my heart has been aching. I know why, I just don't want to succumb myself into believing it because I know, it will break my heart even more.

Nonetheless, I still love you as always.

2008-10-14T03:22:00.012+08:00

Stepping up the game.

Continuing my previous post.

Time is of the essence nowadays. I'm so busy, I don't even go online anymore! Oh well, I know you still miss me dear :)

Anyway, back to Singapore (finally)

Day 2 was pretty much a hang out day because service was in the morning ;p but nonetheless, we were still exhausted.

After dancing our last session for the event, we were free to roam around the wonders of Singapore. With Lester as our guide, thank the Lord we did not get lost :)

As you can see here, Kellz is trying to cross the busy road. But to no avail.
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Being the other one who crosses roads slow all the time, Jia Hao got pulled into the fanatic moment! *You can see Marki pointing at them, lol.
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Jia Hao looks like a prisoner in the end. Tsk ;p
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Oooh! I stepped on the F1 track. It was a delicious moment! :D
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Where spectators witness the esteemed f1 cars zooming across!
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The shopping mall we were at- Marina Square.
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Being a jackun here, because it was the first time I saw so many flat screens on a wall :D
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The two lovebirds having a romantic photo session! Haha ;p
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Tired :(
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Then Lester decided to join our clowny troupe. Now, no doubt, he IS one of us- jackuns.
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Kellz enjoying her RM25 meal. LOL
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Marki was so hungry she didn't even pose!
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Our infamous beatboxer :D
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Tour guide aka, the one who called me short!
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Groupie picture :D

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That ends the awesome S'pore trip!

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Our production 'Dance my love' was a success. Though, I am not ecstatic about my routine, and performance, I think it was alright overall. In the end, I was feeling a little remorseful about changing the cheorography on the last day to entertain Pastor Kevin, but at least we tried. I was just feeling down thinking about this performance. I could have done so much more but I guess I have to let it go and move on. I would definitely step up the game, next time around.

Overall, it was entertaining and I got my parents for once to watch me do something else other than studying. Their pressence there was appreciated. Thanks :)

I shall post pics, once I get them so, just keep logging in to check on me! ;)

*Oh, before I forget, the next post would be a tag post. Cayman tagged moi :D

2008-09-27T02:32:00.004+08:00

Fools, begone.

Greetings back home in Msia again :)

Singapore has been great and now you'll see what I mean! Although it was a full two day activity which left us little time to explore the wonders of Singapore, we had loads of fun.

The night before flying off, I couldn't sleep till 3am. It was so difficult to wake up at 6.30am to continue packing and get ready. So, off I went sleepy as hell, like a zombie, to church.

Upon my arrival there, my dad said I couldn't take my piggie with me :( He said travel light. Oh well, I bade my goodbye to the poor thing in the car, and waited for Adam; who, is btw, supposed to reach earlier than us! :P

We had McD's for 'breakfast' and got into our plane. As soon as the 'safety belt' light went off, we camwhored -.-
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Representing CHC's talent; Shawn the rascal.
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This is Dennis.
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Our respected team leader; Adam.
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.Left to right: Dennis, Shawn, Uyi, Marki :D
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As soon as we arrived, we found out that Uyi couldn't get through the imigration. Unfortunately, he had to be sent back to KL for some confidential reasons. We were devastated, and discouraged. Or, rather, I was at least. Suddenly, I felt an element missing in our team but I still tried to put a smile on my face to help encourage everyone else. Especially, Marki and Kellz :(

We proceeded, with our dance routine, minus a few adjustments. Man, it was a challenge to have improvised in 2 hours. Nonetheless, it was great!

Team CHC KL!
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In the artist room, waiting to be presented to the crowd :)
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My face looks retarded. Got long hair one!
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The many eyes watching us :) in Expo Hall 8, Changi Rd.
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Ahem, I accidentaly, flashed my camera. *glee
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Our Excelsior Hotel. There were mirrors EVERYWHERE.
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Waking up a little too hyper!
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Beautiful girls :)
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I love them both! :)
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With Shawn in the artist room.
He was 'warming up' his sore throat lol.
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With Dennis.
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.Shawn fascinated with Lester's Iphone :D
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Everyone do the Lester pose. Haha.
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Classic.
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@ Starbucks; Day 2. Shopping!

Will continue another time :)

2008-09-23T19:05:00.006+08:00

Twinkle, twinkle, little star.

It has been a busy week; not to mention travelling to Singapore to perform :)

Man, it has been amazing! I don't really have time to blog at the moment, so these are just previews!
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@ Singapore airport being jackuns
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Ecstatic!
Oh, on the side note, I was really amazed by the super fast escalators there! It's like gliding on water. Comparable to Tokyo's? Perhaps.
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On our arrival in Excelsior Hotel, we were being tourists again admiring every single thing. This was the seat, that was almost a full circle. And thus, birth camwhorers.
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I'll stop here for a bit.

I need to get all the pics within my grasp. Plus videos!

Asia Conference, here we come!

2008-09-11T04:54:00.004+08:00

Try as if you've never failed before.

It's 5am in the morning, and I am feeling the pressure and stress coming from all angles. I made a decision to complete my education, but it's becoming more of a complicated matter.

My mother questioned my priorities, and unsurprisingly, it lies within my performing areas. She thinks I am not focused; I am only human. I was never the perfect daughter anyway.

I'm definitely more inclined to my passions if an opportunity opens. Why wouldn't I grasp it? Am I suppose to let it go because of exams, and studies? I don't think so. I don't think my calling belongs in such places. It's just one of those times in life where you feel that you know the touch of your calling, but you don't know yet, the places it would take you.

I am unable to sleep, I cry at random moments, and all this derives from being too self critical and pressured. My parents need to take two steps back and ask themselves why their daughter presented such unduly standards; they should have never been so hard on me. Albeit all that, I still want to be sure that I am doing something crucial in my life so they wouldn't think so lowly of me.

Then again, all I am reading is body language. They always emphasize on how much I assume, which I believe is wrongly accused. They are driving me to leave this home, and I am actually considering the factors.

Help me, anyone. I need someone who doesn't lecture life philosophies back at my face, but help me as I go along this treacherous road. I need an interactive solution.

Even kids have their moments.

The sun will be rising in 2hours.

I am not prepared to face failure once again.

What has happened to my self worth?

Why do I find it so hard to belong?

Why do I find it difficult to trust people's honesty?

Please God, I do not want to go back into depression.

Been there; it left scars on my body.

Blood and tears, I need someone.

I tried, I defended, but I did not do; I am falling.

Knowledge is spoonfed, applications are learned.
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"She lives the poetry that he cannot write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realise." - Oscar Wilde

Mom, this one is for you;

"The critic has to educate the public; the artist has to educate the critic."
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She lacks the indefinable charm of weakness.
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I do not shun away from the hectic schedules, but I am in need of a backbone. Too many adults; too little compromise. Try as I may, with the strength that I have, it has never been enough. My little achievements, mounted into a pile of achievements, but it has never been enough.

Answer this;

What do you want from me?
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Do not use me as the subject. Make it your own, pledge it with honesty. I'm tired of hearing the contradictions you throw at me.

Pens and paper, it does not atone.

2008-09-07T00:00:00.023+08:00

I Emerged; did you?

Like I said, Emerge 2008 was a blast, and though the training of it all was excruciating and tiring, it was all for Him. Somehow, I always found the strength to carry on in rough currents; new friends who stood by to hear my ramblings and complaints. Of course, there were umpteenth times more fun than there were heartaches; to all my POS hunks and babes, I miss you guys loads! When I get my phone back, I will be spamming your inboxes with messages! :D

Sadly, our team came in second! But hey, it's not shabby at all :) Out of it all, we had a blast and that's what counts.

Talentime was, nerve-wrecking. I knew the stage wasn't meant for Latin shoes. After the whole dramatic incident, I'm glad I didn't trip over or fall :) The tip of my heel got stuck once, and I thought "oh shit" but all was good and kind when the worst did not occur.

Most people commented on the excellent dance performance, but I personally felt that it was below average. It had been a busy first day, and by the second day (Talentime day), I was feeling exhausted and fatigue ate me bit by bit. I only had 2 weeks to prepare, and thus the lousy quality. I wished I hadn't win, so to speak; I wanted to redeem myself next year. Nonetheless, Pastor Kong somehow saw the passion in us dancers, and decided to import us all the way to Singapore for the Asia Conference! Ecstatic; that's what I feel. I''m excited and I feel blessed to have attended CHC. It has been the ride of my life. And it's only the beginning of it all.
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Stretch your faith!
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Hey Cheryl!
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Babes being babes. xo`
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SMU foo foo foo!
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Our pretty last minute pyramid :)
Can you spot me?
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This, ladies and gents, was the most long awaited- nerve-wrecking event for me. Before the event, we(the combo dance team), realized that the props were soaked wet and incomplete. Therefore, we ordered some black paper to hide its flaws. Unfortunately, the delivery was not sufficient. Off we went (Adam&I), sprinting to Popular Book Store, to get more materials. We came back sweaty and tired, but still getting the props done were priority! Alas, in the end, we managed, and it looked like the below:

I was figiting about before going on stage.
So nervous okay! I think I was so restless, Kellz nearly got annoyed with me :( Sorry babes!
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This is my solo dance.
Man, it was a challenge to have danced in the suit!
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You guys rocked the stage! :)
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Marki the taxi driveress didn't stop for me :(
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See Aunty Sarah trying to stop the taxi :(
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Oooh, looks like fun ;)
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Haha, don't know what's with the 'act cute' face.
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Take that!
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Only managed to take a photo with one fellow dance member- SAM :( The rest all disappeared.
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Oh well,
An event to be remembered and anticipated once more next year :D
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It was wonderful and fulfilling. Grateful to have been a part of it; loved everything that happened these few months :) I Emerged, did you ?
Emerge 08.

xx

Lazy already :(

Using some capalang pixel camera to snap the after-blogging face. ;)

Singing off (yes, it's singing not signing), with -

You were my strength when I was weak;
You were my voice when I couldn't speak;
You were my eyes when I couldn't see;
You saw the best there was in me,
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach,
You gave me faith 'coz you believed,
I'm everything I am-
Because you loved me.

Goodnight people *wink

2008-09-05T18:19:00.004+08:00

Give me a museum and I'll fill it;

Counting down to T-minus 5 hours and 40 minutes... bla bla secs.

To each his own; to do or do not- there is no 'try'. Kill or be killed- there is no 'try'.

The many years I've been trying to tell you that; and now I've finally found the right words. I think in a million years or more, I still wouldn't be able to define you as a whole. You are full of surprises and mysteries that there are times I cannot dig any dirt up. Slick as you may be, you never failed to be there for me and you always became my pillar of support, whether I liked it or not.

A small dedication before I write upon the real day - 6th of September:

Thank you for always being around to get punched :)

Of course I mean it in a good way.

It's time for my holy obligations :p Will be back to update the status, till then;

T-minus 5 hours and 15 minutes;

Smile la, smile what? Huh!

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@12am
You were blessed with wonderful lyrics of a heart beating out of love.

@2am
Happy Sexy 19th Birthday syg.
Have a good one, coz you're gettin old ;)

Kampai to;
more late nights ;)
more cyber (what nots)
more outings
more care, attention and manja-ness
more Japanese food
more losing to me in sports
more scribbles
more secret whispers
more telepathy communication
more tender loving care
more phone calls
more everything :)

"The most eloquent silence; that of two mouths meeting in a kiss - to the many years that will come, fulfilling a lifetime of love."

I love it when we connect in our loving ways :)

2008-09-04T18:04:00.005+08:00

You know what you had once you've lost it.

Hello readers! (if there are any),

I'm officially up and about blogging again (I hope). It's been a crazed 3 months for me and I believe none of it was coincidental. The people I've met, the things I've seen, the atmosphere I've experienced; they still linger at the tips of my finger.

Of course, there will be a time I'm busy again :P but, for now, I'll just savor the free time I have and express my imbecilic zany-like self.

Emerge 2008 was awesome once again! I had a hectic schedule and fervent daily activities! Nonetheless, it was definitely worth all the sweat, blood, pain, and tears. All the clusters were hyped up and though, we were all from different background/clusters, they would always stop by to lend a hand if you needed any.

I'll have to leave it here for the moment!

You guys rock my socks! Love you all to bits *xo
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Eagles like us wants to soar high!
SMU FOO to the extraordinaire!
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Loved every bit of it, cherished every moment, and we'll let the rest speak for itself :)

Will continue when I have more time and content :P

2008-05-25T16:46:00.011+08:00

I'm starting to think, maybe it's just another hoodwink.

"Get over yourself girl; not everything is about you."

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In the lines of loving you, the many things I had to sacrifice for your unreasonable nonsense; countless times you apologize, seeking forgiveness, but in the end you couldn't repent.

Now, I ask you again: why am I seeing such painful sights of things that you promised not to let me ever set my eyes on again? "I love you honestly, so let me do the worrying."
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"He pleaded her to stay; bonds by love, and commitment by blood. Each time she slips away, he calls her back, and then the comforts. He's written about her, but does he really mean her, or another person? He made himself hard to read, and he knew she did no wrong. But now, does it matter, that she is crying, and throwing herself submissively unconscious to the blades of hell? What's right, what's wrong and what's credible matters not when there isn't something justifiable in the first place. 'There isn't a case because there isn't anyone who's worthy of judgment, but yourself'."

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Does fairytale love exist?
24th May 08 @ CHCPastor Kevin gave an encouraging talk on love and marriage whose points I agreed on most of the time. It was enlightening and humorous to see how he portrayed the arts of a couple fighting. I am totally convinced today that men and women are dissimilar, but yet it is not enough a reason for any man or woman to not connect.

His sermon showed me hope and granted me free of myself; as I thought not many people understood the authenticity of every committed relationship. My thoughts and many of others don't cross a neutral understanding which made it hard to talk to anyone. Pastor Kevin acted out scenes of couples which were so common and easy to relate to. Looking back at it now, it is funny how we pick on the smallest things to argue about. They say they've matured, but it is indeed childish.

I would love to share this with someone who wants to know what Pastor talked about instead of summarizing it here. It's just too much and wasted to be written but instead if shared through the wonders of our voices and speech, it would be a lesson learned.

You, speak of rubbish, and selfish matters. You pass your disdain onto others as if it is only you that matters. But you are wrong; because of your narrow mind, and two faced chameleon.
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"She asked for death; Death showed itself."

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私の王子に:

私が愛するかどの位わからない。私はことを知っている。今夜、私は一部には、許す。私は私を私の敵の前に見苦しく立つことを許可するための憎む。私は明確ではないことのための憎む。しかし、私はまだそう多くの事のための愛する。私にあなたおよび私が私達の生命を判断している他の人々なしに住むことができる道を示しなさい。

最も大きい後悔とのそしてまた多分取り替えられる愛する喜びと。

"He came close in an amorous seduction. Against the wall, our sexy drama started."

P.s: Story continuation coming up next.
P.s.s: Any title suggestions for the story?, anyone? :)

2008-05-24T00:41:00.003+08:00

Sarcasm so boundless, it terrifies me.

Mock trial @ JPS

It was definitely an experience one should add to their list of "must dos/see". Although, the arguments were flawed, the entertainment was enjoyable. It must have been hard work coming up with a storyline, plot, questions, etc in a month. I was most surprised that the witnesses and accused came in costumes. Oh, and not to mention the judge too.

I'm glad I became a jury (not to mention it gave me some motivation to pay attention to the case being brought forth). I'm sure a real court wouldn't have been humorous at any point but this- it was definitely entertaining.

Good job and well done to attempt the first mock trial of the JPS club :)

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Surprised as I was, I knew it meant nothing, because you just weren't fearful.

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EYAA's award ceremony is coming up and I'm so screwed. To stop or not to stop?

2008-05-18T16:51:00.007+08:00

Alter ego ;

"feeling flushed and hot, she begins to wonder..."
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Her flawless cream colored skin brushed against the silk comforter. "Wow, this gentleman must have elegant taste, to afford such comfort." Well, it isn't as if she wasn't one herself. She slept on a King sized, extra soft mattress, with a comforter made from the finest Siamese silk and two maids to attend to her every need. Ironically, who'd have known that she would end up in a place with such similarities, half dressed and lavender scented.

She stood up for the first time ever since she woke up, and placed her feet gracefully on the white marble platform. The cold ground refreshed her senses and she tingled all over her body. It felt as if she had jump into a freezing cold pool.

She looked around and found something odd about it's living premises; no pictures were found anywhere, be it a picture frame or even an artistic piece. Gone, the chance to denude this gentleman's mystery. That aside, her throat thirst for anything that could quench her thirst, and so, she walked to the kitchen. Assuming that this gentleman was a bachelor, the kitchen was well maintained, plus it was spotless unsullied. Everything, everywhere was in tip top condition. That made her even more curious about this man. Who is he and why isn't he here?

While helping herself to a glass of water, she saw a note. It was addressed to her. How did he know my name? It read:

Dear Miss Anelya,

Pardon my lack of etiquette for not formally introducing myself but I had to rush off for an important errand today. I'm terribly sorry that I had to leave you all alone this beautiful morning. You were drunk and collapsed in my arms last night, therefore, I have brought you my humble home. I hope I have not startled you in any way. I would like us to formally introduce ourselves tonight if you do not mind, so feel free to call Edward; he is my butler and will attend to your every need today. Be well, and have a good day. The limo shall be here at 7pm tonight.

P.s: You looked pain painstakingly beautiful when you were flushed and asleep.

Yours sincerely,
Asriel

How bold.

She was falling for this man's boldness and charm. I think I'll meet him tonight. Asriel, what a beautiful name for a man. With her mind imagining what Asriel might be like, she began to feel a soft growl coming from within her stomach. Edward, the butler eh?

Picking up the phone, she dialed the speed number given and a mellow voice answered on the other side.

"Good morning Miss Anelya. I hope you are well this morning. I'm Edward; how may I be of assistance?"

"Yes, good morning Edward. I'd like a fruit platter and a favor. I need a dress for tonight's occasion, if you've been informed. Could you please get a ride ready for me?"

"Definitely, miss. I shall bring your breakfast up immediately. Is there anything else you need?"

"Not at the moment. Thank you very much."

"It is my pleasure, miss. Then, I shall bring the platter up immediately."

The conversation ended. Funny though, it did not sound awkward. This could be the change in my life. This could open a totally unfamiliar chapter in my life. Excitement overwhelmed her, and she was ready to face whatever this man has got up his sleeve. For a moment, she smiled, and her cheeks blushed cherry pink, and for that moment, she was free from the chains of her austere past.

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After CHC's dance practice, I visited Tim at the church and saw something fascinating. This ;

It comes in 3 colors!
Everyone say "wah!"
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Kira, kira ni narimashita! :)
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*Squeals like a small kid*

Unique right?
Sorry la, if it actually existed long before I've known about it. But it was my first time, witnessing such a mouse in action. Awed.

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"He played his classical guitar up on that intense stage. Displaying the wonders of his fingers; he caught my eye and I could only stare in admiration. The vibe unknown as to whether shot at me, was mysterious and heart throbbing. Was it the music, was it the pumped up atmosphere, or was it just a moment of eye contact? Either way, he has left me distracted, and warm."

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Hey there stranger, if you don't mind, I'd like to know you.

If he serenaded me within the depths of his soul, there is no doubt, I would savor the emotions felt, and sob with a smile on my face.
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It's out of control, but I can't it let go. I'm a house of cards in the hurricane; a reckless ride in the pouring rain; he cuts me, and the pain is all I feel.

`bloodstain.

2008-05-11T20:59:00.013+08:00

Your actions outspoke your words.

*clears throat*
(Been shouting/laughing/screaming/singing, too much lately :p)

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Before I continue the story (read last post), I'd like to share this :)

These people, they roam the streets. Own it, some people say; terrorize it some others speak of, but do we really know their stories? Tatter clothing, dirty faces, unhealthy addictions, wearied complexions, oppressive exteriors, and unattended sympathies. Yes, they are homeless, poor and unfortunate.

It was a great experience participating in the soup kitchen event, as it opened my eyes to see the environment I've never set eyes upon before. The strict yet carefree culture, mixed with racial diverseness made me understand that not all underprivileged people are harmful. It felt fulfilling and comforting that I could offer my services to those who need them.

Mind you, they have a decent courtesy for saying thanks. These are people who truly appreciate things they are short of.

I could say, conclusively, that it was an achievement, in abundance.
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THIS picture was displayed on purpose to see how refined our kitchen was. I expected our jobs to be more dirty, but hey, who's complaining? :)
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Results of our dutiful fingers scooping freshed cooked HOT rice.
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Our civilized area of distribution.
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Diligently at work. Haha.
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He, who is, the scooper of gravy. His right hand was showered with muscle pain after scooping for over 100 people.
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KL streets; the walk back to the LRT station.
There were 3 policemen walking behind me, and I didn't even notice! Maybe they thought I was smuggling in something. :D (Yeah la, I was smuggling in illegal pads -.-)
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SUBWAY
I have finally, rewarded my taste buds and appetite with this delectable meal!
For RM12.80; this was all worth the moolah. Gawd, it was tastylicious! *drool
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The long and windy and shaky road home.

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Scenic panorama.

Of the one day, that I walked the pavement at the park alone, enjoying the morning sun on my cheeks, and refreshing breeze blown against my body;

You, who know me best, still, would never know what prompt me to snap the dazzling sunlight.
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Calm and collected; these greens represent the sincerity of my heart.
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But then again, even in light, darkness dawns upon her silhouette, bringing confusing inequity at her feet.

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I know I'm a little late but -

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to ALL MUMMYKINS :D
[ red represents hot-ness mmkay *wink ]

May all your daughters/sons/adopted children/relatives give you more massages, shopping sprees, happiness and LESS pain in ass moments :)

xX.

2008-05-06T22:43:00.010+08:00

His fingers&lips; I feel the betrayal touching

She first set her eyes on him whilst he was walking back to his hotel. Golden brown hair, enthralling eyes, magisterial sense of presence and a graceful strut. Even as a man, any other males could have easily fallen for this beautiful creature.

The moment she wanted to look away, he gazed at her with a smile and walked towards her. That night, she was slightly drunk, and lonely; needless to say, she was still aware of this man pacing himself towards her. She clutched on her handbag, and cling ed onto a wall nearby. With each step the man took, her heart skipped a beat. What would he want with me? Who is this mysterious person? Am I in danger?

Questions overflowing her mind; she started to waver and couldn't stand upright. Her legs finally gave up on her and she was falling, falling, falling... and then there was a hand. A hand which held her with conviction. Looks like he made it on time. It was strange, really strange, to not feel any menace emitting from this gentleman. She felt safe, and protected, unlike what she was supposed to feel; fear and awkwardness. Then she thought, maybe this is how it all starts. They will look as pure as an angel before they turn over unveiling their dirty true colors.

She blushed, and he beamed. It was as if an introduction was taking place in silence. He let go of her and she looked at him with drowsy eyes. Maybe, just maybe, she had too much to drink and the after effects were taking a heavy toll on her. "Why should I care; it isn't as if I have anyone to go home to..." With that last thought, she collapsed, unable to withstand anymore mind games.

She awoke to a few periods of churning in her system and ended up throwing up. "Damn hangovers", she said with remorse. She tried to recall what it was that happened before realizing that she wasn't in her own bed, in her home. White sheets, with lavender scents, and dozens of items which would have symbolized a suite fit for a goddess. Shocked and amazed, she thought to herself, "I'm still dressed, but what is this feeling; as though a night of gratification had occurred..."

Flashes of a gentleman;

Feeling flushed, and hot, she begins to wonder.

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to be resumed, awaiting it's next existence on a page yet to be written.

2008-04-15T21:10:00.012+08:00

All I need is you; you are all I need.

Sexy down that costume;
The music playing,
You're attuned,
Breathless, that vapor you whisper,
Warmth; that wets my cheeks,
Closer, closer, with each pace you stride,
Your fingers that on one that's tight,
Delicate touch,
Elegant grace,
Is it just me, or you'd like a taste?

xx

Vampire Knight

Fangirl gone wild. (Runs around parading Kaname & Zero's banner) Gawd, vampires are never as hot as these guys. With a romantic, comical and blood sucking plot, this anime is the best of its genre. Very soft art work; making the men look like bishounens, and of course with all the hot guys around, there's oughta be one female protagonist - Yuki. Gah, she's cute as well. Vampire Knight debuted on the 7/4/08 and it's gotten me hooked ever since. Each week, I'm eagerly waiting for another episode to air. They call this, an addiction, no? :)

Aido Hanabusa. Cheeky, annoying and mysterious at some point.
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A vampire himself that burries hatred for other vampires- Zero Kiryuu. So far, a protagonist. Man, with his bloody rose gun and charming, caring attributes, you just gotta love him.
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Vamp eyes are hot. Period. Kuran Kaname is a pure breed vampire. Mysterious, reserved, a guy with command, and more importantly, drowning in infatuation with Yuki, he's definitely hot, hot, hot.

Ps: All the seiyuu's for this anime rock the core! I'm so liking their voices.

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Code Geass: Lelouch of the rebellion

(Screams like a fangirl again)

Love this show's storyline with it's mix of a little comedy, drama, relationships and robots yo! Though a few of the robots look similar to the ones in Gundam Seed, it still has nice fighting scenes. As per the the title, this show is about the rebellion of a young discarded prince who finds the Brittanian government full of disdain (must read/know his history). He inherited Geass; an eye with the power to command anyone to do his bidding. There's a season 2! :D

Lelouch Lamperouge aka Zero. Intelligent, charming, elite chess player, values friendship but physically weak. Somehow, he's really cute when he can't keep up physically running around. && I find it awesome that he has the guts to overthrow his own Father.
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Green haired girl; the one who gave him the eye for a price of a contract. She's a snob but yet caring (at least towards Lelouch).
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Love this show :)

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Loveless

*pulls hair*

Why isn't there a Season 2!? Caution: If you do not like shonen-ai genres, this show isn't meant for you. I find it hot that guys love one another, especially when that person is SOUBI AGATSUMA :D (kyaaa)

*takes a break*

Mmkay. Well, this show is about a guy (Aoyagi Ritsuka) who lost his brother and inherited his brother's Fighter (Soubi Agatsuma). He gets confused because he never knew such people existed and also because of his own destiny (amnesia). He doesn't know who he is supposed to be. Throughout the show, Soubi tries to protect Ritsuka while Ritsuka has a love-hate relationship with him because he mentions "I love you" so carelessly. When Ritsuka discovers more about his brother's (Aoyagi Seimei) death, he started to look for answers. During that process, they formed an intimate relationship.

*I need to read the manga maybe, because I'm quite clueless as to where the story's heading.

"I would die for you, I would do anything for you" - Soubi.
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Man in blonde ; Soubi :D
Guy in blue ; Ritsuka :)
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Shonen-ai anyone? *glee*
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I want you to have your ways with me.
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Would you be, my fighter Beloved?

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*exhales*

Okay, that's compensation for not updating often enough. My sleeping pattern has lost it's time/clock ( perhaps I'm turning into a vampire? :P ). I'm in the process of repairing this problem. Tsk. But on the positive note, I am able to see the sun every morning :)

"Kiss me, as my tears run cold,
Hold me as my body losses it's warmth,
Just one night; to keep your promises."

2008-03-24T00:08:00.010+08:00

Love is ;

First off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR MOTHER :) I'm sorry stress is a compulsary thing when it comes to raising me as a kid -.- But, in years to come, hopefully you can relax more, stress less, and go shopping with me more often.

P.s: You're not old lah. Stop pulling your white hairs! ;)

xx

Friends Night @ City Harvest church.

This church is damn happening lor. Aside from Metro Tabernacle, which I also like a lot but it's all the way in Taman Melawati. That's 40 minutes drive okay. Can speed all the way to Genting Highlands already ;p

Well, Friends Night is all about making new friends; it's like a youth event. Enough said.

So, without further ado... presenting the "OMG, so cute Awards".

This little girl wins hands down ;))
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They party like rockstars ;)
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Then I had to sit at the back because it was packed like crazy -.-
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Who knows Danny One? I didn't know until he came on stage. Local celeb wor... ;p

xx

Sense `

Boss still haven't pay me. *angry fumes* I want my moolah!

This is me bored. I can be worse when I'm exceptionally BORED.

Color my sensuality.
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Drama queen.
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Do you think you know this girl?
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In the end, it's still 'our little secret'.
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Hushed;
There will be despair,
Hush;
This life you spared,
Hush;
When you say I love you,
Hushed;
When I stripped naked,
Silence;
As you stared in awe,
Whisper;
When your hands touched me,
Call;
Is this, all of you I see?
-onepair; oneofakind.

2008-03-20T16:30:00.016+08:00

The existence of doubt; death bringing.

"In literal form. Yes, death. If only you could turn the tables: doubt dies not us. If you want to hear genuine happiness, know that you can hear it. If you can't, then many things hasn't been redeemed. This heart isn't a giveaway goodie; it is the only thing that still keeps us in tact- talking." - theatmosphereisthick.
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That aside, where have I strayed to lately? Oh well, you know, here and there. Though, some pictures aren't completely with me :( I will only blog this is preview style, lol- wtf?

I went to Kota Kemuning to meet up with shuttle cock KAKIS! ;) Tell me I'm smart okay. I had a dance performance the next day but I still played badminton until my ass hurt. Smart right? And no, that wasn't the end of it. After resting for another 2-3 hours, my legs were numb. JELLYBEJELL-O. And to add more pain into the big burning problem, I went out that night for an open house. Plus, I went to watch a movie. Knn, I've learnt my lesson lah :(
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Treats @ KK. I like the ambience in there. Simplicity knows best ;)
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See! The menues also so cute (Puppy eyes)
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Spaghetti. It tasted awesome when I had the first bite, but that's because I was a mad hungry polar bear. After 6 spoons or so, I think it tasted from awesome to "uhgh, don't want to eat already, so sour :(" BUT food is food :)
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Another small event:

My cousins are sadists I tell you! When they're bored and coincidently, they spot a jelly like turtle toy lying around, the first thing that comes to their minds is to make a skit on how the turtle died to a mousetrap. wtf!

Before. Sorry, I was laughing my eyeballs out because he was actually telling a story with DIALOGUES.
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After. Dead. Phaw. Piak. Bang. Squish squish :(

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Jian's Birdyday! *grin

The boy who:
- reads more books than me
- plays more sports than me
- eats WAYYY more than me
- teases Ethan more than me
- never fail to mooch off me T_T
- makes sarcastic jokes
- writes poems about his mom eating chicken wings (Lol)
- has sneakish attribute!
- plays more dota than me

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It can go on and on and I just don't want to ! ;p

Happy Birthday ! :)
The unique looking and tasting cake.
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Not surprised, more like "Don't take my picture lah"
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His accomplices. tsk tsk. Behind all those innocent smiles ... :D

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Random.

Sleeping on the swing, IN THE hot sun. Tell me Lord, why am I like this? -.-
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Woke up, and this is what the sun did to me. Fried all my brain cells and I went cuckoo.

ICLS karaoke competition.

Jap song lovers from all over came to give a shot at their singing. Lol. It was entertaining and funny as well. Think American Idol + American Idol's audition. Well, I was there for a different reason. Dancing Jive was in my itinery. But unfortunately, my teacher hasn't send the pics to me yet, so... uh huh.

Ballroom hall.
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A game they were playing. It's like True or False?
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MARU = O
BATSU = X

Spot the maru sign.
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In the midst of all the commotion, I only manage this low quality, rushed pic :( booo!

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Anyway, I'm hungry and it's raining.

Okay, honestly, I was trying to take the effect of the sunburn I got. :(
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Was taken yesterday :)

Well, there's another post behind that picture. Let's just say my boss called me up for a favor. So, off I went to her boutique.

Toodelahs ;)

2008-03-10T00:10:00.009+08:00

I'd like to dance with you, he said.
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Sunday 09/03: As the itinery reads the "Malaysia Asian Open Dance Championships 2008" was held in Shangri-La hotel @ KL. Events were divided into two segments; day and night performances.

Skimpish outfits, glittery blings, tidy hairdo, etc, this will be me when the next competition comes! For the sake of updating this public diary of mine, I shan't put any pictures of me, yet ;p (there's another event that I attended) Let my 3.2 megapixel photos tell you what this is, roughly.
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How many times do you want to look at the booklet? -.-
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Fav couple #1
The guy was more enthusiastic than his partner. But somehow it worked.
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This is why I need a DSL camera!
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This older couple were cheeky :)
Participants over the age of 55!
They can shake the sexiness out of all of you!
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Murder on the dance floor.
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Ladies leading ladies. Men, time to get yourselves turned on ;)
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Ballroom event. The Waltz.
Such a beautiful dance.
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I didn't take any Tango photos because they were simply too quick and hot.
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This lady stood right infront of me, and she looked so angelic. Thus, the sole picture of her standing before the song started. I liked the soft color on her gown. Best looking one on the dance floor :)
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I don't know why I ended with this but live with it ;)

Waltz pose`

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I hugged, I kissed, I smelt and I dreamed.
I touched, I called, and I sang.
Out of nowhere, his voice rang in the midst of still air;
"I love you"- enchantedbykindness.

2008-02-29T03:11:00.007+08:00

"Girl, you're my only babygirl."

Apologies and resentment,
Have you really repent?
Look into my eyes,
Look and never lose track,
These words you said,
"I want you back".

White roses, fresh air, a cup of lemonade, a flying kiss that actually flies; he told me his story once, and I'd like to reminisce the nostalgia.

Titled: Why she's all that I want and want to be with.

"A man could not ask or hope for anyone more of caliber. She has a heart of gold, loyalty only seen in fairy tales, character so cute that it'll put babies to shame, and a body so sexy that it'll raise the "heart" of mine. She is and will always be as good as it gets.

Long story short, I'll forever regret it if I let go of her. Love comes as often as spring; true love only comes once in a lifetime. And she's the one."

:)

Pampering self.

I did a french manicure in the name of indulgence. It's been so long since my hardworking fingers were pampered and I felt that they deserved it.

No other color looks as sweet naturally ;

Gloria's Jean with my pretty nails and Vincent, my boss. (whom I didn't take a picture of ;p)
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Shiny ga barney, haha, I'm so funny -.-"
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Call out my name, and not hold back.
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Because I'll look dungu-ish even if you didn't ask me to.
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Showing you my imperfections...
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doesn't mean you take advantage of them...

But embrace them, because they're a part of me, and you told me one of the reasons why you love me- "It's because of who you are."

I would like to apologize for causing your hoarse voice, but then again, this is a part of me hoping that your hoarse voice would bring us closer.

g'nite stranger :)

2008-02-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

Define courage ;

Somewhere in the month of February, I hanged with my gay gays and we went to catch "Jumper" on it's first night airing the cinemas. It was full, and when I say full, it's 3 rows from the screen full. The neck ache I have today still exists! Bloody chair. One U's chair is way more comfortable. But it's not the chair or the junkfood that makes the atmosphere, but my gay gays.

I like Hayden Christensen very much. So, I guess you know how much I liked the movie. Plus, Rachel Bilson; I love that girl ever since the O.C. She's definitely got character and that I like about her.

Man, if I had that kind of power, I would be the happiest person on earth.
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Look at em' love birds :)
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This is Griffin (Jamie Bell). I love this dude as well, because he's just funny and I get English jokes. Gawd, his accent - Lol ;)
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This guy- I don't like! They torture those poor Jumpers with electric rods. I dislike violence like these, even if it's on the big screen. Just don't have the heart for it. That figures why I don't watch horror movies ;p

Question of the day: What would you do if you had a Jumper's power? & where would you travel?

2008-02-24T03:55:00.009+08:00

Wtf?

First off: Happy New Year, Happy CNY, Happy Valentines Day, Happy Birthday to (you all know who you are lah), Happy Schooling (haha, kids), Happy wtf days, etc.

Welcome back to me and I hope I don't have to go on hiatus mode again. Not that I haven't been inspired to write but most of it, I was busy tending to another human being. Or rather, many human beings. Yeah, that human being couldn't get enough of me. Lol.

Omg, I know I haven't been blogging but somehow it feels weird to be posting stuff again -.- I know. Weird right? Anyway, I'll just show you one family thing I did. It's been a long time since I could name it that 'family thing'.

Cousin, aunty & uncle came back from Canada and we had to bring them around ;)

Lol. I can't get over this. Not to be rude or anything, it's just funny.
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How to shoo you both annoying thangs away? You call me jie jie, you compliment me beautiful and sexy, you laugh at my lame attempt at jokes and you never say vulgar things about me. How lah, you sweet cupcakes. Lol, getting too gay already. But you girls know I love you muchos ;)
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(That's me up there with only 2 hours of sleep)

I ask you okay, how many mountains can you travel to in an evening? Tell me. I traveled up and down 3 freakin mountains in an EVENING. Exhausting and definitely taxing mentally. As for the physical body check, I think I could only vaguely feel my body parts later on -.- But hey! How many times do I get to see them beloved Canadians? 7 years, ONCE. =\
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As a Malaysian, I'm proud to announce that I've finally riden the Solero Shot.

From this view, I kept saying "No problem one lah, no problem".
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Then, me aka the chicken backside, started to have second thoughts -.-
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What else happened.. oh yeah.

This annoying, noisy, boisterous, egoistic, knn brother of mine finally hit puberty. Lol. I still love you even when you're pulling my hair. But don't push it !

Own aunty also dowan to hug?!
Heartless boy, you are!
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& it was time for them to say bye bye. I was surprise I got so teary in the airport, but needless to say, I already miss you yee mah! Thanks for talking to my mother about her wrong doings. *hugs*

As for the CNY and XMAS and all the January events, guess what? Handphone died on me :( Repairing it took a month. Thus, the lack of visual effects. But I promise, in the future, I will not let my phone die on me again :)

I had a wonderful 3 months and I know you know what I know.

x0'

2007-12-21T18:03:00.000+08:00

Tis' the season to be Jolly :D

Ho-ho-ho-ho, Merry X'mas ya'll :))
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Dear Santa,

I've a confession to make: I've been naughty but in a nice way. So, does that make me naughty or nice this year? I really want a white Sony T-series camera this year :( Could you just make my wish come true this Christmas please, please, please? At least I'm honest! :D

ps: I don't have a chimney so just ring up my cell (it's a kind of telephone) and I'll open the door for you! Cookies & Creme will be welcoming your presence with freshly baked scents! And we have to camwhore for a bit before you leave alright?! xD and no, I didn't forget the milk!

Thankiew Santabuns!!

xoxo, Sarah.
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I'm so glad you understand me santa, beacuse I've been misunderstood all this while.

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Lovers at heart,
I've not forgotten your touch,
Gentle embraces,
Wrapped around in grace,
If I had one wish for Christmas,
Not last years', not next years',
But for all the Christmases;
Warm us up Santa,
Keep us tight,
Remind us of true love,
Remind us of generosity,
Remind us of giving,
Remind us, so that we never give up;
Remind us, so that we'll get to see the Christmas to come.

//Dearest stranger,

I love you and always have. Despite all the shortcomings, the events and bad luck, mistakes will come and go. You are a part of me, a part of my life. Never will your essence be gone, even if you lived a thousand miles away. My smile; your memory, your embraces; my memory. The cutest moments will always be remembered, in those special places that only you and I have gone.

To what's coming, to what that is meant to be, I've given my heart for you to love and care for. Carry it well, carry it proud, as I've carried yours all this while. It is a tough world out there, so let's continue to support one another, let's laugh together, let's enjoy this moment.

Even in the toughest and darkest of times, love may not stand out even when it's shining its brightest, but know this- that I'll always be here, and try as I might to be your light because I hold you dear here <3

I love You.
xoxo`

Lickety, lick. Yum, yum. Kissie kiss, muahs :)

Now, let's partay!

2007-12-19T17:28:00.000+08:00

Interpretations.

As promised, a post on the Cadbury experience. What is this Cadbury ex-huh?

It is a caravan that travels around Malaysia(I think) telling stories to children in rural areas. I was asked to help out for the day and get paid! So, I went lah.

Anyway, I had to wake up at 6am and travel for 2 hours till we reached an orang asli kampung in Sepang. That's like travelling to Ipoh by car; speeding at 120km/h. But ahh, that's not the point.
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I slept the whole journey because I don't wake up that early. Yeah, piglet me. After reaching the kampung, we found out that the caravan had some engine problems. And so, we got delayed. From storytelling at 10am, we started around 1130? or was it 12? Anyway, here are some pics.
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While waiting for the caravan to arrive, some of the very excited children came early and gathered at that small spot there.
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Haha, retarded me. But look at the bus- have you seen one like this?
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Storytelling in progress. Adorable aren't they?
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I was actually very surprised on how sporting they were despite being in a different environment for a while :)

*Just a note: The temperature outside the bus was, let's just say 'scorching hot' and we helpers were pampered with 3 blasted airconds in the bus. ;)
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If you've read so far and not know that Cadbury is a chocolate brand, you're really dumb -.-"
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Was tired as hell; cannot wait to head home ! :p

Glad I went along to help, glad to have met these kids. To see them laugh, smile and be merry was a satisfaction more than deserving.

2007-12-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

Welcome back to ME :)

Here's the lame post Elliot :( Written in 10 minutes, all non-nonesense, nonesense.

I'm amazed at myself how long I kept away from blogging. But the reason was worth it. School holidays kicks in; in other words, this means a total kick ass holiday season, I hope.

It surprises me how much can happen during the half month period. Activities splurge in one after another; sleepless nights begin; throw in a fatty mamak diet and there you spell purposeful , perhaps?

There is always something to do and somewhere to go. A day never goes by with boredom and you can actually feel your energy being drained out of your own body. Movie tickets fully booked, cc's fully packed. Everywhere you go, there will be an increase in human bodies. But, who doesn't know this already? It's only normal it happens anyway.

On another meaningful note, I recently sat for my Japanese Proficiency test last Sunday, which makes me so relieved I'll finally be able to sleep. I was anticipating for the exaggerated anxiety to be over. It has been eating me from the inside. Plus lately, my parents haven't been jovial. The problem must be me once again. When will I ever get to live my life without being complained to, everyone else? Both of them seem to be having PMS. Sigh, what a way to start the holiday.

My legs are aching, wait, scratch that. My whole body is aching due to an expedition that was revently held. This time my camera died on me and there was no charger. Thus, you shall not get any picutes :p If you wish to see SOME, click on Ethan>Daniel at my sidebar :)

Well, at least now, I have my bed to sleep on, my own bathroom to use, an aircond room, a bug free environment to live in.

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Maxwell 2, period.

I once wrote a journal entries for the 3 days that we were up in Maxwell- the first time up. This time, I am not even inspired to write about it.

What was different? or rather, what was the same?

Few activities were different, if you can call it that. Everything else was pretty much the same. See, for the first time, I have to crack my brain open to write something about Maxwell. *goes away for a while to get a drink*
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Okay, here goes.

Hiking up the hill was not unfamiliar to us. We could all split up and still find our way to the bungalow. Carrying extra weight seem to make us hike up an hour and the half faster than hiking without them. How interesting. As usual, hiking up wouldn't be fun if there weren't dramas, for instance, Ken attempting this steep stairs of stone as a short cut, but failed the first time, painfully. Let's keep it at that only, shall we.

So like I said, even if we broke up into groups, we would still make it to the bungalow. None of us got lost this time, and no one got bitten by leeches. *Hallelujah*

Cutting the long story short, we did what we did the last time we went up. Except that this time, after waking up from my afternoon nap, a new game was introduced to us. It has no name, but I shall just call it, the Bang-Bang-You're-Dead game. It was a game in which the obvious isn't so obvious but obvious anyway. The ones who got it right, slapped themselves left right, center and self proclaim themselves smart; the ones who didn't get it right as quickly as some (that's me) started to feel like a clown amusing everyone else. Oh, the agony and frustration.

Bohnanza was as usual, in play 5 times a day. Don't you guys get bored? :( I did. Sigh. Anyway, the kitchen utensils were used this time. Ken & Yang were the cooks (don't know why they like to cook together so much...hmm)

We hiked up all the way to Maxwell's peak and saw a satellite. What a sight. Uh huh. But I'd admit it felt like an accomplishment. We played some blind man game IN THE DARK. Hah! that's something different :) It was fun but painful at the same time. I knocked my knee into the fireplace area, and limped-hike down the next day. I respect and admire blind people even more now. It makes me wonder, how they live their lives every single day.

Cc was cc-like. Fun. Period. Less is more. That's why I won't say any more.

In conclusion, the "holiday" this time was taxing on my patience. Living with other people, in the same house is scary when their true colors show. It was amusing to see some of them make fools out of themselves. It was priceless to see how an ego as high as Maxwell hill itself, explode. But there will be one thing I could choose to forget, but never will it be gone. That is why, this time, my "holiday" here, felt dirty even before I could start it.
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Next post up: The Cadbury experience :D

2007-11-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

I'm already warmed up.

Tralalalala. Sarah is happy, sarah is ecstatic, sarah is joyful, sarah is pleased, sarah is perkish, sarah is thrilled, sarah is glad, sarah is delighted, sarah feels excited, sarah feels gay, sarah feels a little love, sarah feels blissful and blessed and elated with positive aura!
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There might be too many happy words to be read if I continue writing :p

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"This is a great step ahead for my loves; I can only wish it'd be the same during my birth month." -myheartskipsabeatbecauseofyou.

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